Danceworks is finally nearing. Right now, i don't feel an inch of excitement. My feelings are sort of numb because im in a dilemma. A decision i have to make that i might regret. Im not sure if it's just temporary but have you ever had that feeling that it's time? Time to let go. What makes it difficult is that it revolves around people that matters to me. I dont know why im feeling this way. Maybe it's a mixture of personal issues and frustration. I don't blame anyone at all. Just me.
My unusual behaviour have caused someone to get hurt. I do feel bad especially when it's suppose to be a special day. Im sorry.. Im not the greatest best friend afterall. If im still even considered a friend at least. That is why i think it'll be better if i just take a step back for the meantime. Till i get a grip of myself.
Im on my own with this because i can't seem to get someone who understands it. Well, at least im not trying to. I feel so lonely more than ever. Again, i don't blame anyone. I can't fathom it myself. I need time to think it through. Maybe my feelings would change. I dont know. Only time will tell. |
